Sunday, June 30, 2002
Someone slap that "lola" label on me...
ok yeah so i'm feelin old rite now. i was trying to make the blog rounds but i'm too freakin tired to do so! i've had a long day damnit! i opened today at 9am, which means that i had to wake up at 745am to get ready...and then i faced all this traffic bc they're working on the damn streets out here!! arghhh!!! then i get to work and realize that i dont even have to be there bc tobias came in anyways!! oh well...i got paid and its all good. we were so freakin bored that we made a damn pyramid out of java jackets dude it was sooo big!!! out of my coworkers rite now, i'd say most of them are cool....like not too many ppl get on my nerves...but they're are some that do...they're just...there's no kind way to put it...they're wack!! i'm amazed at how lazy ppl can be sometimes. and that statement coming from me is damn near amazing bc i'm one lazy ass person! whatevers...i've had enough encounters with ppl that i dislike that i can muster some form of fake courtesy when i'm around them...
then i went to church...i have no idea why i went, voluntarily mind you...i sat there and kinda soaked it all in. i really tried to pay attn, but i constantly found myself saying "why?" like why do i believe all this shit...i know its supposed to be this thing called faith, but my brain keeps doing this thing called thinking with logic and half the time it doesn't make sense...whatever...i dont know...this whole religion thing really has never been my thing anyhow..
then i had dinner with my parents at houston's. damn they have some bomb ass steak there!!! i throughouhly enjoyed my meal. even though my mother gave me a lecture on why i should quit drinking and smoking for the one millionth time...
and then i treated my parents to watch bourne identity....yes it was my 2nd time watching it..and good lord matt damon is hot!!! like not just hot...but HAAAWWWWTTTTTT!!!!! okay okay enough gushing...
see so i've had a damn long day...dont you think i should be tired? i feel like i should call some ppls to say hello..but i can't muster the energy to hit their numbers on the phone...
i'm off tomorrow and tuesday...maybe i'll swing by the irvine and hang out??? who knows...or maybe i should hit up a musuem?? still have some cash...whatevers...its time to relax that's all i know...
oh little observation: i was listening to my new reggae/dancehall cd that i just burned from ivy's...yes yes i love this music..but damn after awhile it sounds all the same...i know that can be said about most music...but i'm hearing the suttle differences in each song...it just reminds me of the times where i used to go out and chill and smoke...shit now i'm reminscing like i'm a lola....
god gawd!!!!
Saturday, June 29, 2002
chica chica alert: BLEH!!! =/
Tuesday, June 25, 2002
ok so i was doing the blog rounds...and god damn there's a lot to do!
i figure this is a way i can keep in touch with my irvine ppls...even though its a very one sided way..but hey i get to know where all of you are at and you get to know what i'm up to...
so...to all those who read this thing...
sarah: dude i feel sorry for you girl! but i could totally picture you fallin and then just getting back up like nothing happened...yes yes you are the true thug life!
amidar: chica chica alert?? hahah i gots nothing but i just wanted say to say whats up to you!!
alex: i miss you and you're many hoes hahahah i love you honey!!
bee: ahhh i'm happy for you! you better call me i want details!
nic and hans: ok nic i misss you your in the pinas rite now and probably can't read this..but i just wanted to write this! hehe and hans i miss you too, but you never read this anyhow!
kaebora: stay strong no worries man!
mike n: go camping !!!! the internship will be there when you get back... ;)
jon d: i miss my boy jon!
grandpa j: it was cool to hang out with everyone again...i miss all you apsa/vac folks!
debby: road trip to visit steven??
twinky: your on your way to that 6 figure salary aren't you !! haha
ivy: i see you all the time chica! but thanks for being my valley/la summer buddy...and yes I SHOULD be more jealous...i'm the only one that hasn't gone to europe!!
jen: you never see this but i hope your having a kick ass time over there in italy...find me an italian!! hehehe
richard, vanessa, jose, ronald aka the other members of the brockton family...: barhopping anyone??
mesa ra's: i miss you guys!!!
okay enough of this mush fest...i'm still not done with the blog rounds...heheh
*muah* i miss you guys!!! i heart you lots!
Monday, June 24, 2002
summer has definitely set in...
i'm up till the wee hours of the morning doing absolutely nothing...wake up in the mid afternoon and then start the cycle all over again...
the only thing that occupies my days is work...which isn't too bad. i'm still the "new girl" at borders sherman oaks...but now i'm the new cafe goddess...ironic since i was one of the laziest ppl in the south coast cafe when i was there...i guess laziness at south coast equals hard work in sherman oaks...its cool beans..the ppls are nice, as usual..and i have no qualms with the work...its easy shit for okay money. i'm just glad to have something to do besides rot at home.
i had tortillas today again. i bought the really big kind at costco and i just warm'em up on the stove...it makes me think of thao when i eat them...all i need is some macdonald's bbq sauce... =p
since i'm a music fiend, i bought a LOT of cds this past year...and with that comes a lot of memories. that's what music does i guess. everything i listen to reminds me of this year and how much it really meant to me...its hard to not cry sometimes, but i'm over that stage...now when i hear the songs i just kinda sit back and smile...
mood: happy and content
music: phantom planet, the guest
Saturday, June 22, 2002
home--week 1
not too bad. work and frequent visits to the oc have made me a happy camper. being at home has lessened a lot of things in life.
like:
seeing my friends on a constant basis
drinking at the pub...although i know that stopped last quarter...it was always an option
getting faded in general has stopped
being able to walk across the way and find someone to hang out with
but it hasn't lessened my ability to smoke...cigarettes that is...thank god for work...i think its a rule written somewhere that retail employees especially borders employees have to consume nicotine. lol
i missing my friends big time right now though...
it seems like everyone's taken off...jen's in italy, nic-hans-theda-des are in the philippines, vanessa's going to europe (granted she's with her mom, but still she's in europe) ronald's going back to europe again...
damn i need to take off somewhere soon too...
road trip to the bay? or vegas anyone?? haha i know ppl are down...we all just need to find time...you'd think that since summer's here that we'd have all the time in the world to do what we want..but alas we are now a part of a world of responsibilities such as our jobs, or summer school, or family shit...boo
oh well...it happens when you grow up i guess...
Friday, June 21, 2002
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Tuesday, June 18, 2002
no more ethernt means no more blogging 24/7 which also means that these things are gonna be hella long because i'm going to have a lot to say...so sorry!!! =(
so moving out was a bitch because i have a lot of shit and bc i didnt wanna leave...irvine is home now...but i had to...there's no reason for me to stay out there since i'm not taking summer school or anything like that, i didn't wanna be selfish and do that to my parents since i know we're hurting in the wallet area.
my summer projects are as follows:
unpack my shit
throw out shit i dont need...since there's a lot of it
study for the gre's
pay off my debt
hang out with my cousins
read for fun
visit museums
go on random road trips with friends
RELAX
i seriously need to just relax and not worry about shit for once...its been awhile since i've done that..
on another note...my last night in mesa was fun...drank and smoked yay. i can't drink a lot anymore which bummed me out...i could barely put away 2 newcastles..what the fuck was wrong with me??? and i smoked with emil and mikey which was good times...got to hang out with taylor, emil, mikey so the night was fun...i know i didn't get to party the night away with the old school apsa folk at toan and anh's grad party..but i had good times nonetheless
checking out all my residents was hard. i cried my eyes out after everyone had gone. and driving away from mesa was the hardest thing ever...i cried driving back to the valley...it was really hard to leave. i didn't know that it was gonna be that hard...but i'll never ever regret doing it.
the sucky thing was that i didn't really get to say good bye to anybody...like on staff that is...i defintiely am gonna try and keep in touch with the ppl i've met this year...we went through a lot together as an ra staff...i'd hate to see our friendships disappear because we're not around each other 24/7
i did get to go to one grad that day...bio...and really that was the most importnat one bc the ppl who walked in that grad were the ppl who mean the most to me. twinky, debby, thao, rozanno and the other puso ppls all walked at bio so i at least got to see them...i can't believe they're done...which means i'm gonna be done soon too...i was sad that i didn't get to go social ecology and soc sci because there are more ppl who mean a lot to me there...but ra life puts that strain on you
ok i'm gonna start to unpack now...wish me luck!
Friday, June 14, 2002
MY RESIS ARE THE BEST....
THANKS FOR THE SCRAPBOOK!!!!
I HEART YOU!!!!
so i'm bored bc i'm pretty much done packing...and all i'm really doing is checkin out residents...=( and everytime i pick up my book (i've made my summer reading the crhonicles of narnia...) i find something else to do...sheesh...i think its because i know once i really start reading this book...it really means the year has come to an end...and even though i went through a lot of shit this year...i wish it didn't end so fast...
i truly am blessed because i got the opportunity to spend a year with some of the most amazing ppl...
I HEART YOU OTERO FOREVER!!!!!
MESA RA's '01-02 ALL STAR Staff!!!
Mesa love....
Thursday, June 13, 2002
i must have done something right in life because i dont know how i would've been lucky enough to have friends like all of you...
THANKS!
i love you all so much it hurts...
ok so enough of this mushy crap..i've cried already damnit!...now its time to get drunk and party! hehehe
Wednesday, June 12, 2002
i'm hanging out with 1/2 of the sunday crew watchin the game in caren's room, listening to jp jam on the guitar...all that's missing is thao...
i'm really gonna miss times like this... = /
OH HELL YEAH
I AM DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
a page and a half to go and i'm done with finals...
had i not been a lazy ass and wrote this paper three weeks ago i would have been done with finals at 330 this afternoon....
damn me for being a lazy ass...
but then again....i wouldnt be me...
i'm heading to the pub tomorrow afternoon...who's with me????
Monday, June 10, 2002
eloisa sean charlie vince hans nic bee mish tine rex april pat jevon jan chari emm mel d chris sarah alex anabelle gen bev vu tammy albert phil reggie ervin sheila bryant rozanno berto g yan david regi danielle angel steven earl khoi debby twinky eddie kay shirley ngoc nancy roseanne jenn jen ivy vanessa rose richard ronald karen emil taylor darlene jared papa james abuela anna shaunte will amber sara christina thao caren jp sriba may chris delfa nancy eileen jenny wen-li sol blair otero resis dwight don eric mike n. jon d kaebora amidar laureen sunny julie jonah ricky toan khanh newton cheryl jason p. erica linda arlene joyce lusty henry theda anna g. vesi adrienne sunny l. cat w. dre amy daniel anil kammie karen grandpa j kuni lizzy noah anthony "tubo" kevin jordan eric vijay mel p mike l.
thanks for the memories
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Sunday, June 09, 2002
just got back from a suprisingly relaxed weekend in the valley...
moved more crap home...but yeah the room still looks full. at least the drawers are empty!! i'm just worried that even though i've taken so many trips home that all this shit won't fit in my car and the family mini-van. cross your fingers. i just might make one more trip tomorrow night.
being at home didn't have too many drawbacks...i think i've realized how all this will work...i come home and find a parking space and then i take my dad's car to go out and do my thing...not too bad if you ask me
did have a lil talking to about my spending habits...yeah yeah...i still spend money like water even though we're in a financial bind...i feel so guilty for it now...dad said they're gonna cut off the discover cared...you know i actually hope they do, bc i can't really spend plastic if i don't have it...
but when i come back to the valley i wont be spending too much money anymore. there's no one around to spend it on for one and the only thing on my agenda is working to pay back my debt and reading/writing/catching up on tv/relaxing etc etc etc
and in between all that i'll plan for the asian am house...although i wrote out my plan somewhere and i have ideas coming and going as they please...i'm happy to get my second chance at this whole ra thing again...
ok now its time to write 2 papers, a seven pager and a ten pager...and my research for them sucks ass...i'm gonna have to pull some major bullshit analysis outta these papers...
and study for spanish..i'm not too worried about that...for sure i'll get at least a C+ and if i actually try a B-...
wish me luck...
Saturday, June 08, 2002
its 1 03 am
i'm buzzed and stoned from kickin it with my ciudad homies from way back when...ciudad alcoholic crew '98-99. we did what we ciudad do best: drink! hell yeah baby...reminscing of our alcoholic days. i never drank as much ever in my fuckin entire life then my freshman year. we were fuckin outta control...but shit it was fuckin bomb ass good times! damn it was strange to know that most of those fools were graduating. most of them were ready to bounce out of here and get out of irvine. me? hell know...i wanna be done with classes and shit, but i wish i could stay for one more year...oh wait up! i am! hahaha i get to be a kid for at least one more year and actually get my fuckin shit together. no more slacker action going on here okay!
no more kaba board, no more responsibility hanging over me. it feels good to finally be done with all that shit. dont get me wrong. i loved every minute of it...okay well not EVERY moment, but it had its moments. but if feels fuckin good to be done. i can get my life back and just chill and kick it with the people i was mia with because of this fuckin club.
i shed no tears because there were none to shed. honestly i really couldn't wait for it to end. i made my bonds with the people i needed to and learned a lil bit more about others, but it definitely wasn't the same as last year. last year i found my second family, my best friends. this year i tried to recreate it, but that was impossible. instead i understood what it was like to be step-child caught in one family and attempting to find your place in a new one. i dont know if i ever found my correct place, but it was a nice run, but i'm definitely happy its over
tomorrow i move more shit outta my hall...my baby for one year...home to me and 65 other freshies, and in about a week, we leave this place. too many things are ending at once...but it feels like its time.
i look back and think of how i said i wished it was all over and now that it finally is...
i want one day more
Friday, June 07, 2002
oh god...i'm at that point of almost being finished with a paper....you know that point where...its only a couple of paragraphs more, but you can't seem to just hash them out...damn this point
i had one final yerday...did ok afro latin music
i turn these papers in that means i'm done with another final... fil am exp
umbrella council is already done...
which means come finals week i just have to worry about two film papers and spanish. this can be done...and with pretty ok grades
yay thank god school's almost done...my brain's getting fried...i think since i haven't exactly had to use it much all this "studying" is causing my head to hurt. i think i should've blown the cobwebs away before i started this shit!
Monday, June 03, 2002
we are the people we looked up to...
sitting at eloisa's grad lunch made me realize that i'm old. vincent has just graduated high school, eloisa graduated from college, karl graduated from junior high, freak even gina (honorary family that she is) got her masters!
and now i'm on the cusp of a close to another year of college, a year which was supposed to be my last, but now is only my 4th. i'm not too sad about this whole being old thing...i've come to accept it as a fact of life nowadays...yes i'm old, but i'm still young compared to so many other people in this world. when i'm through with this whole college thing the ppl i interview for jobs will just think i'm a youngin...the only ppl i'm old to are those still in school...and eventually they'll join me, so it doesn't really matter then...
i know i complain about being home for three months, but it won't be that bad....i'll get to finally throw out all my junk...and arrange my room again to be my room...face the reality elaine your gonna be there for a while...like awhile means even after college because you're a broke ass...
after four years i've accumulated:
some book smarts, a lotta life experience, a lotta clothes, cds, and movies....
and its not over yet....
Saturday, June 01, 2002
i missed my cousin's graduation...sorry vincent!! but CONGRATS!!! you've finally joined sean, me, and charlie and are now st. gen's alum!! hehe
what ended up happening instead?
*worked from 12-4...which btw i didn't have to bc i wasn't on the schedule..but hey it was nice to make and easy 40 bux
*got plastered from 430-6...reggaefest...i'm must've consumed a pitcher or two in the span of like and hour...too much alcohol not good
*apsa banquet....slept through most of it because i was so piss drunk. drank more bc of dwight...everyone was so tossed bc of reggaefest...got to see my dedication..damn steven for not editing properly...i'm fidgeting with my nose in one and so it looks like i just did a line of coke! the food was good times or it may have sucked i dont know..i was too drunk to really care...i eventually passed out on my make shift bed of four chairs lined up together...damn my eldery-ness and getting drunk tired so easily
*came home and talked to my resis for a bit...I HEART YOU NELLY...your dopeness never forget that
*realizing t hat i have to work at 12 tomorrow sucks big monkey balls...but knowing that i'm gonna go to vincent's grad party after puts a smile on my face...yay filipino food from family parties! always good times
oh and musiq formerly known as musiq soulchild...will you marry me?? you're freakin dope. i love your music...i love your style...i love your voice why can't i find a guy like that damnit! if you ever read this email me hahahaha!!!!
uccloud9@hotmail.com
man oh man i'm a dork....hahahah
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