woohoo

so i'm gonna be in chicago from aug 1-aug5

yay my one summer trip type deally. should be fun. excited, yup. i've kinda got that worried feeling....the worried feeling i get before conferences where i'm asking like who am i gonna hang out with? am i going to be a total spaz? etc etc. i'm just gonna try to make the most of it and see whats going on.

i'll be disconnected for most of the trip. eek! i hope mike get's his wireless card to work out there. my hotmail freaks out if i'm gone for like a day! oh crud muffins.

damn my parentals for waking me up at 843am. i dont have work til 1. oh well back to sleep for a couple of hours.





HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE!!

 
thanks for the memories...

RIP Bob Hope
1903-2003

He tackled vaudeville, radio, tv, film, and made the troops laugh when they were in the middle of war. I laughed at his antics in all the "Road to.." flicks with the crooner Bing Crosby. He could, sing, dance, and make you laugh. A damn legend. And I always thought it was cool that his wife went to Ivy's old church in North Hollywood, St. Charles de Borremeo.

When I was little I remember staying up late and watching his Christmas specials and USO shows. He made me laugh. I think people thought it was strange that such a little kid would get his jokes. Maybe I gots an old soul? All I know is I will truly miss Bob Hope and the laughter that he brought to me and to everyone else.

At least I have AMC, they've got to show a Bob Hope marathon now...

Good Night Bob.
thanks for the memories

 
lazy days

sat consisted of hanging out with ivy and richie. no andy boo. where was he? asleep maybe? hanging out with shirley maybe? who knows but i had good times with ivy and richie. we went to this crepe place on sautelle. quite the nummers. then it was off to el cid for soundlessons. it was nice to get there early and get some prime real estate on the patio. hung out had some drinks. we went inside to dance a bit, while we waited for ?uestlove to appear. the music was funky and appealing. a lot of the brothers were in the house to support ?uestlove. don't think i saw anyone from the roots there, but i might've missed them. i saw my cousin kristine...AGAIN. i swear i see that girl everywhere i go in la. she was with nathan chuuuch! how crazy is that, huh j9?? small freakin world i say. i saw marvin and conrad old kaba folk there. probably proving again to mike that i know someone everywhere we go...

?uestlove's set was dope but i cut out bc i'm old and tired and broke. so i made me appearance and had fun. kinda wished the usual crew was there so we could chop it up a bit more. but alas i heard they were all up north at some spot checkinout wildchild. sorry no one was dancin guys! i got to shake me booty down here.

today consisted of sleeping in and going to charlie's 21st bday lunch thing. yay my cousin is 21. family party = doing nothing. i ate that was pretty much it. and i sat around and watched tv and messed around online. pretty much what i do at home, just at mi primo's casa.

she's crafty

i made another skirt today. i made a three during the school year and had planned to make more but life got in the way. yesterday i decided to make skirt from an old pair of cargo pants. i wore it to at the fam party, but i had no time to sew so it was held up by safety pins. but i got to finish it up by putting some stitches in the skirt. quite happy. think i'll be a lil bit more crafty and make more skirts. it took me 2.5 hours to hand stitch it. i remember when it took me like all day to finish one skirt. damn i really need to learn how to use my moms sewing machine!

that's all...back to reading...

 
hello hello

yay for ivy for saying she'll go to soundlessons with me. looks like richie might come as well as andy woohoo! he got a 10percent raise, so perhaps we shall celebrate going to see ?uestlove of the roots at soundlessons.

always got love for my musical brother sexy rexy so i told him about soundlessons. looks like he's already gonna be at the roots/dmb show at the home depot center in carson. hope to see him at soundlessons. missya guy!

thievery

i've been doing too much of the five fingerin / thievery. i dont know why...i'm gettin good at it though. but i know i need to stop. thievery is bad elaine thievery bad! i got a leather bracelet, te of piglet, and farewell to manzanar. no more thievery...but dude sometime i swear the things are just asking to be copped... =p

angelina jolie is my sex god

lara croft tomb raider cradle of life. long ass title with my sex goddess angelina jolie. mish can attest that this is the woman that we'd hop the lesbian train for. dude she's so hot. shor the film wasn't super high on drama/comedy. but the stunts kicked ass and so did lady croft. only peeve: why were all the henchman asian brothas?? what's goin on there man? come on ms. jolie have love for you cambodian baby's peoples! otherwise...she's hot go see it enough said.

words and poetry

i dont know if its bc of the upcoming apia poetry / spoken word conference in chicage coming up, but i actually had inspiration to write some words down. words other than the dribble that is in this blog. i actually got up out of bed with lines in my head. it felt so good. it was that charge of energy that surged through me as i raced to pen them down in my journal. mike doesn't want to use his spot anymore in chicago. he said i should take it...who knows? i haven't performed anything in a while, so i'm quite rusty.

here's the piece.

baby of two nations [title is a work in progress]

I am a child of two nations
I was a bun i the oven
As my parents flew to their new home in America
My Lola was frightened, scared that her grandchild would be born in international skies
With no country to pledge allegiance to
But my mother safely made it across the pacific w/my father
A picture of her pregnant self at the airport in a wheelchair
Proof of my existence
Proof of how I became a child of two nations

My parents tell me they came here for a better life.
They came here to be w/the family
They fail to tell me they left my father's mother and father, brothers and sisters.
They fail to tell me they left their careers
Where had we stayed they would've been presidents of banks or mayors of towns

My mother walked across the street to give birth to me
Medical paid my way into this earth
We lived across the street in an apt complex with my aunties and grandma in the apt next door

I became the product of their dreams and joys
But they do not tell me until later how i was almost a memory
bc i was almost never born

Fore War in the philippines is nothing new
Christians and muslims have been fighting like the british and irish, jew and palestinian
my father tells me how my mother almost lost me in the midst of this ongoing war
her constant spot bleeding and week uteurus caused a doctor to prescribe german drugs that would later be known to cause babies to be born w/out fingers on their hands, but stumps
they left a movie theater just in time before it exploded into shambles
the target of a bombers mind
they left all this and came here
came to this country
where w/enough education and will
we could, we would survive
and i was their healthy baby girl
the product of two worlds
my skin is brown and gleams with pride
but my voice would never have an accent like my parents speak with inside
my relatives spoke to me in english so i would never have an accent
instead i became a mono-linguist child who can only understand my parents native tongue

i learn what it means to make sacrifices
i learn what it means to support two families.
your own here in the states and the one you left behind in pi
i feel pressure to succeed, under scrutiny from every tito and tita's eye
my cousins and i
we must prevail
we must succeed
to prove that their journey to another country was not an unnecessary need
to make tham all proud and happy
even if we never asked to leave an island country
for a better life, which they say we all live
but my confused two nations world must deal with all these laments
and begin to pay the price for all the money that's been spent
on airfare, on visas, on passage, on greencards
on tuition, on diplomas, on lives, on dreams

this is my life
this is my journey
a country i will never see
lives obviously in me
a language i will never speak
falls on my ears and i respond in another tongue
its clear as crsytal to everyone
i am a child of two nations


its longer than most things i've written...
dont know how it flows just yet gotta work on it. perhaps tweak it abit.
that's it for now. gnite everyone.

peace & blessings

 
its summer...bc i can...

APPEARANCE
hair: short and black
eyes: dark brown
height: 5' 4

STYLE
clothing: pants that i've cut to be floods, tshirts, thrift store deals, hoodies, castro caps, headbands, chucks, my new addidas kicks, whatevers comfy
music: hip hop, funk, pop, rock, emo, punk
bodyart: yes. 4tats [ my dads last name in baybayin-right shoulder blade- my moms last family name in baybayin with the philippine sun around it -left shoulder blade- a cartoon angel praying with the virgo symbol above her-lower back- kanji of the word cloud and the roman numeral 9 left side of stomach]

RIGHT NOW
wearing: brown mooch tshirt, pants cut to be floods
listening to: the end of the simpsons on the tv
thinking of: how bummed i am that all my going out buddies are in the bay and i cant find anyone to go see ?uestlove at soundlessons this sat

LAST THING YOU...
bought: ego trip's book of rap lists
read: te of piglet
watched on tv: simpsons

EITHER/OR
club or houseparty: spot
tea or coffee: sunrise from coffee bean
achiever or slacker: slacking achiever
beer or cider: castleberry: raspberry cider and newcastle
cats or dogs: doggies even though all my friends say i can't have one
single or taken: taken
pen or pencil: pen
gloves or mittens: gloves with the fingers cut off
food or candy: pizza
cassette or cd: vinyl
coke or pepsi: arnold palmer=half ice tea/half lemonade
matches or a lighter: lighter

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
kill: should i really mention that here???
hear from: mesa allstars, oldskool apsa folk
be like: stephanie velasco...she was my idol in college.
avoid: sometimes my home

LAST PERSON YOU...AND WHEN?
talked to: ivy on the phone, my parents at dinner, mike on text messages, d.hu on aim
hugged: mike
instant messaged: ivy
kissed: suckaa
who broke your heart: lips are sealed

WHERE DO YOU
eat: at home, at restaurants, with friends, with family
dance: at spots
cry: in my car
wish you were: with my friends

HAVE YOU EVER...
Dated one of your best friends? yup
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? yup...my lola
Drank alcohol? pshh of course
Done drugs? yup
Broken the law? five finger
Ran away from home? it was called college
Broken a bone? hyperxtended my left knee
Cheated on a test? is the pope catholic?
Skinny dipped? no
Played Truth Or Dare? yeah
Flashed someone? don't think so
Mooned Someone? nope
Kissed someone you didn't know? no
Been on a talk show/game show? nope i wish
Been in a fight? verbally? constantly. physically? nope
Ridden in a fire truck? i think in kindergraten
Been on a plane? i will on aug.1
Cheated on your Boy/Girlfriend? no
Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride? yup
Eaten a worm/mud pie? when i was a lil kiddie
Swam in the ocean? yup
Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up? yeah

WHAT IS...
The most embarrassing CD in your collection? i'm not embarrassed by any of it....but many would scoff at my justin timberalke and nsync. oh wait...my auntie gave me britney spears' cd...that's gotta be it
Your favorite thing for lunch? pizza. especially rays
Your favorite thing for dinner? anything thats made with love??
Your favorite Restaurant? norms

ARE YOU...
A Vegetarian: i was for lent once
Good At Sports: i can play, but i'm a lil rusty
Good at wakeboarding/snowboarding: hah nope. tried snowboarding but i got tired of falling on my arse
A Good Singer: i've been told so
A good Actor/Actress? sometimes
A deep sleeper: kinda
A Good Dancer: shor. i have fun
Shy: sometimes
Outgoing: sometimes
A good storyteller: sometimes
Last words: as i saw on bet a lot..."holla back atcha boy!"

 
i remember
when we used to play
shoot'em up
bang bang

this isnt gonna be an entry about those days when bullets used to whiz by my house. bleh those stories are boring and suck. yes we all know elaine lives in a neighborhood where you can score crack just as easily as you can score crank or coke. yes we all know my ghetto neighbors sell weed. blah blah yes we all know everyone is scared to pick my ass up when i'm at home and the sun has gone all the way down.

thats not what this entry is about

this is about that one party at sherinie's house. ok so lemme take you back to 1996?? i think it was. my friend sherinie, who's parents made their money owning and running several home care facilities for the elderly, was having a party in her backyard. i think it was like a sweet sixteen deal or some shit like that. it was a dressy sort of affair, bc i was wearing a dress. and lord knows i never wore a dress back in the day. shit i hardly wear dresses now... yes yes skirt over pants is weird to some of you, but thats as dressy as i'll go

tangent aside....

it was sherinie's bday party and we were all hanging out. drinking beer and smoking cigarillos. yes we were being "bad" and there was this guy. his name was manolo. and he hit on me and he gave me his telefono number. he was cute in that i'm filipino from la and i'm bald and talk with that g'd out voice kinda cute bad boy. i didn't call. he lived in la...my scuuurrry dad made me not want to look at the phone receiver. my cousin had just gotten in trouble for a really big phone bill bc he was talking to some chick in la. i chickened out bc my daddy woulda killed me.

my my my [johnny gill?] things have changed...

guys who are balled and g'd out dont hit on me. callin la is like second nature. the bad boy type that manolo rocked doesn't get me to crumble as much as it does now. unless your from hb and have your sleeves all tatted up and extenders in your ears and your in a punk band and/or surf and you drive a big ass white /black truck...ooohhhh drool. and the ppl i seem to attract rock the trendy urban style or are the fruit to my fly.

it's so strange how certain memories just pop into your head so vividly. and if i had taken a different path and had the courage to call that guy what madness would've happened? ahh but as we know things all happen for a reason. and all that mumbo jumbo.

i gotta end this soon bc i'm sittin on a milk crate for a chair in front of mike's computer and my ass is starting to hurt. it is also developing a box shape pattern. are you thinkin about my ass now? stop it! cheeky monkey bumlookers

 
just because...

16 years ago I:
1. was in first grade
2. went to pinecrest elementary school
3. thought i'd go there forever
4. my best friends were debby and jenny
5. let my mom dress me in girlie dresses, tights, and mary janes

10 Years Ago, I:
1. was in 6th grade
2. went to st. genevieve elementary school
3. had a crush on bj [bleh everybody did]
4. had a pen pal in hawaii - rosa yang
5. hung out with my cousins [sean, charlie, vince] a lot

5 Years Ago, I:
1. was a freshman at uci
2. lived in ciudad in mesa court
3. joined kababayan
4. really really loved frank sinatra/vince vaugn/and john cusack
5. wanted to go to uci forever

3 Years Ago, I:
1. was 19
2. was a sophomore and hung out at 4911 raintree A LOT
3. kicked it with the apsa homies
4. planned to go to grad school for asian am with an emphasis in asian am representation
5. laughed a lot with the film studies friends [dubya {lisa}, tridelta {kim}, and richard]


1 Year Ago, I:
1. lived at home for the first time after four years
2. worked at borders 359 sherman oaks
3. made frequent trips to irvine to hang out with homies
4. went to the fanhs conference and met some kick ass people
5. couldn't wait to get back to irvine for one more year of school

Yesterday, I:
1. was late to work bc i ate breakfast with my mom
2. hung out with ivy at barnes and noble and got myself a freeeee TE of PIGLET
3. had dinner at tony roma's with andy, t-mo, richard, jose, jen, and ivy
4. took random pictures on the kiddie rides at westside pavillion and looked stupid
5. watched pirates with everyone minus jose and sat next to richard who kept asking me questions about the movie

Today, I:
1. wasn't late to work, but didnt eat breakfast with mom
2. had jack in the box for lunch and did andy's breakfast jack thing...substitute ham for sausage and added lettuce makes an almost burger with cheese and an egg
3. dealt with 101 traffic
4. found come ups at the oxnard thrift stores [dope bag, jacket, shirt, vinyl]
5. watched bad boys ii in ventura and had some really really sickly sweet coldstone

Tomorrow, I:
1. hang out in the 805 some more with mike
2. probably spend more at thrift stores
3. go to irvine and kick it
4. watch johnny english
5. smile a lot

5 Things I'd Buy With $1000:
1. tickets to radiohead at the hollywood bowl this september
2. dvds
3. gameboy advance games and accesories
4. slurp slurp vinyl
5. something nice for my mom and dad

Top 5 cd's that have been stuck in my cd player:
1. black eyed peas
2. justin timberlake
3. stevie wonder tribute album
4. cut chemist mixes
5. the new monica cd

5 TV Shows I Like: no particular order
1. i love the 80s
2. real world
3. simpsons
4. family guy
5. vh1 all access/driven/ilove the 80s [its so dope its gets mentioned twice]/all their other shows

5 Places I've Lived:
1. sun valley
2. van nuys
3. north hills
4. arleta
5. irvine

My Top 5 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. vinyl come ups
2. cable modem and cable in my room
3. my mommy being at home
4. realizing that i did graduate forreals [yay to that d- in stats]
5. mr. suckaa

 
reminscing

lately my mind has been wondering to things of the past. some good some bad.

*the first fob party of last year at steelhead with mike and alex. that was good times all around with smokes, drinks, dancing, friends, staying up til 4am, norah jones.

*the first meal i ever had in my house when i moved here when i was three was pioneer chicken. i was the only kid there while my mom, dad, tito mike, uncle johnny, and all my other dads homies sat around my old coffee table and ate shared our first meal in our house. the pioneer chicken where we bought the delicious grub has since vanished and is now a popeyes...just not the same.

*when i had to give a eulogy for my lola's funeral when i was sixteen. i got through most of it until i had to read a poem i wrote for her and i broke down. my tita cesa had to come up and help me. i dont know why i was asked to say something, i think i represented the younger cousins.

*when i moved in mesa and unpacked my stuff in otero i blasted jimmy eat world and taylor came up to my window and asked, "is that jimmy eat world?" who knew that this tall white boy would end up sharing a lotta tender moments with me. i had no idea we'd be so close and share a lot of things. i miss him a lot. i miss the whole mesa crew a lot.

*in high school i sang "somewhere out there" the theme for the american tale, some martina mcbride song "you are my valentine" for the talent show. i wasn't scared on stage. i realized that i don't really get nervous on stage.

*when i moved into mesa my freshman year i had no idea what i was getting into, and all of a sudden these twins and i were talking about uni prep and doing goofy things and staying up late and drinking. those girls are rad. i heart deb and twinky =)

*how scared i was when my tita cesa called me at school asking for my dads phone number at work. how weird it was that i got all these "private number" phone calls on my cell with no one else on the line, only to realize it was my mom having a stroke on the other end. calling my dad's cell and hearing him sound scared. going to mission hospital and being ok until i see my mom hooked up to machines and just breaking down. revealing to my entire family that i smoke. going to my lolo's bday celebration on the same day and pretending to be ok in front of my entire family. not knowing if my mom was going to live. crying my eyes out til i couldnt breathe. wanting back a normal life. coming home every weekend to see my mom in a hospital bed, in a nursing home bed, finally at home. adjusting to my mom being at home. having a stranger live in my house. having someone take care of my mom. adjusting to life. adapting to everything.

*board retreats and laughing so hard i'd be in tears. road trips and ice breakers. bonding moments and tears. hot dogs/ketchup/and mustard. drama and bitchiness. alcohol and maryjane. love and familia.

*when i was a lil kid i was a violent kid. i got so mad at my cousin sean i broke my uncles guitar on his head...i think i was like 3 or 4.

*when i was a lil kid and sean and i had the same babysitter some other kid took my toy and i cried. sean pushed the other lil boy and he fell. the next day the lil boy who took my toy came to the babysitter with a cast. sean had broke his arm.

*playing school/house/donut shop at tonopah

*getting lost in the musty brown see through curtains at marson.

*giggling when lolo and lola fell asleep watching there abc soap operas and they would snore and/or fart on the cushions.

*having mr. able teach me and my cousins and everyone else at st. gen elementary school piano. never ever practicing the piano.

*nights of pcn delirium

*nights of apaac delirium

and more things...its crazzy....guess i'm just in the reminscing kinda mood

 
summertime

so vh1 is doing some special on will smith. talking about how he's a such a great guy, actor, rapper, blah blah blah

so yes its a push for bad boys ii.

they just talked about his song summertime and it got me thinking to that summer in 91? 92?

well for all the wackness that will smith puts out now musically...that miami song?? the mib ii song sucked ass man.

but summertime?? thats a classic. for some reason it resonates through time. play it and all you can think about is cruisin in a car with all your homies, drinkin some lemonade, munchin on some bbq. its a damn good song for mr.jada pinkett i must say.

ok the end back to my summer reading list.

currently reading: black, white, and jewish by rebecca walker
currently listening: whatever the tvs spittin out...ambient noise really

oh and i'll be watching bad boy ii man. dude i loved bad boys i gotta get that on dvd. and i swear jerry bruckheimer/michael bay has to have a car chase with hummers in it. there's one in the rock, one in bad boys. ok they couldnt have one in pearl harbor bc duh hummers didnt exist then. armageddon? didnt they chase someone with a hummer in that movie too? damn...i swear thats a jerry bruckheimer/michael bay thing

 
insomnia

the valley heat is causin me to have some insomnia. i've been wakin up bc its so freakin hot. i should have never thrown away my fan. fuck. i'm dying out here.

been havin more drama with pops. i dont like this whole yellin at me, but tellin me that your not yellin at me parental routine. and how come the phrase "i don't want you to feel like your restricted...go do whatever you like" feels like exactly the opposite bc there's a twang of guilt in there when said. an underlying "your such an ungrateful child" in there.

fawk. i know moving back here was the best thing to do for my parents, but i dont necessarily think it was the best thing for me. i've been away for 5 years and then to suddenly feel like i'm trapped just sucks. i need to find a job so i can get the fuck outta here. please please please job gods open something up for me...

boo

 
gettin outta dodge

inside joke...my daddy's name is dodge. how my big pilipino pappy got an american car company for a name, i have no idea.

so alas...i'm in the vine for another short weekend. not too shabby. caught some din din at mimi's [french onion soup baby and a lovely roast of pot] and a flick at the block.

pirates of the carribean. wasn't too shabby. johnny depp runs like the fruitiest pirate i've ever seen. and he's laughs for his insightful and strange piratey ways. mr. orlando bloom aka legolass does a nice job as a swashbuckler saving ms. natalie portman lookalike. [she really was her double in attack of the clones] special effects in the movie are rad. my artsy fartsy cousin mr. i'm going to art institute wanna do special effects and i do extra work on the side cousin charlie would throughouhly [sp] enjoy it. it's not entirely like the ride though bc really? how could you make a close to two hour movie about a 10 min ride? that's why the title is "pirates of the carribean: curse of the black pearl" so the story primarily revolves around the curse of the black pearl. word to the wise its not about a pearl that is black, but duh that would be common sense, no?

i swear little english girls singing is always scary. in the beginning of the movie there's a little english girl singing the pirates of the carribean song "yo ho yo ho a pirates life for me..." gave me the heebyjeebys.

for all you disney nerds: there's a secret mickey in the movie. if you don't know there's a secret mickey in most of the rides at disneyland and their placed in certain scenes. like at the real pirates of carribean ride its the 3barrels in the shape of mickeys head. the one in the movie is in the sky. dunno if i should tell you exactly where it is...i'll let you all figure it out.

the story is loosely based on the ride. and there are some scenes that are carbon copies from the ride, which are a trip to see..but its quite cool. i think disney's tryin to make more movies about their rides bc there's gonna be "haunted mansion" starring eddie murphy. that sounds kinda shades right there. wasn't there a comedy routine out there that sad if black folks were in a haunted mansion they'd just get the fack outta there? hmmm the trailer had a lotta of the ride scenes in there ...like the crystal ball lady, the ghosts in the cemetery, the dancing ppl in the dining room... isn't eddie murphy the new kiss a death to a movie tho? hello pluto nash ppl!

plans for the rest of the wkend? hung out with thao for a lil. maybe get some food later on. read my many books that i purchased from borders yesterday. most likely stupid white men. michael moore is a genius! and hang out and relax...

yay for friends with apts of their own...

workin on the jobby thing, gotta make that shit happen.

back to hangin out....
peas&crakers

 
just when i think i'm all about loving my parents...something happens and all i wanna do is get the fuck out of here

go figure

 
leftovers

whenever i go out to eat i have leftovers...leftovers that i never eat. last week i had some hurrycurry chicken and rice and some porkchoppers from versailles. didn't get to touch'em. the other day had some french dip and french fries from fridays and some steak and shrimp from sizzler. barely caught a fry of that french dip and got a potato or too and some steak and shrimp today.

why oh why is it that i'm not eating my leftovers?

my pops.

so i guess my dad isn't too happy that we eat dinner at the early bird hour of 4pm either. and he's been eating my leftovers before i even get to the fridge the next night.

it used to bug me bc i wouldnt eat dinner and i'd expect to have my leftovers to eat. but i figure my pops can use a good meal or too...even if they are leftovers.

pops just works all the time. now that he's the only one making real money around here. and i know its tough bc he can't really relax and go out anymore bc when he's not at home he's here taking care of moms.

it sucks how i come home after watching t3 and i can only tell my pops "yeah it was really good." or "you'd like it a lot pops." i wish i could just take my pops out to have a nice steak dinner and let him watch the action flick of his choice.

sometimes i dont eat a lot of my meal and just take home the leftovers. i make sure to get something really good. it's the least i can do for my pops until i get a real job.

what can i say...i'm a daddy's girl for life.

 
...

July 2, 2003

Dear Ms. Dolalas,

Congratulations! You have completed all requirements for your B.A. degrees in Film Studies and Asian Ameican Studies from the School of Humanitities effective June 14, 2003. Since the degree award will not appear on your transcript until late July, you may use this letter as verification of your degree until it is officially posted.

Again, on behalf of the faculty and staff of the School of Humanitites, please accept my congratulations and best wis\hes for continued success.

Sincerely,
Robert Moeller
Associate Dean

This is part of the letter that I recieved today. yay. i'm officially apart of the real world. now my last official uci undergrad decision: pick up my diploma or have it mailed??? i dont even wanna think about alumni association crap.

bah....real job where are you!!!!

signed,
retired student looking for a job that will make me happy

 
t3 and other random brain farts

t3 was surprisingly good. its kind of like charlie's angels2. you ignore the sheer obsurdity of the stunts, but just take it all in for the fun of it all.

its action packed. of course. did i do a couple of jumps and squeezes of my movide buddy's arm and/or hand? yes. i was a bit disheartened with watching a film with claire danes in it. after her whole proclaiming the philippines to be wack and what not, but i already had paid my 10.50 for my ticket so i might as well stay. the grove is such a nice theater, but the price is just way too nice sometimes.

but back to t3...so yeah. arnold pokes fun at himself, which is cool. i suppose he figures, my last 3 films tanked, might as well be funny. but it works. the chick who he has to fight. she's got quite the evil eye and the evil eyebrow arch thing going on. i think i'm scared of blondes now. especially ones who can shape shift their arms into different kinds of weapons.

so if this is the summer of sequels...get ready for the summer of trilogy's and sagas bc yeah...t3 is just a set up for t4 or whatever. yay to arnold having more of an acting career. vesi was right though. arnold did look considerably smaller. i suppose you cannot be conan the barbarian size forever.

looks like the terminator just might be running for ca governor. i think i'd vote for him. for some strange reason i feel like he isn't a dumb blockhead. he's got a degree in international business. he married into an extremely political family, although they are from his opposing party. [ahh yes camelot...the kennedy's]. and if anything maybe he can give us some of his own money and take ca outta debt. man maybe ca needs to pull an oc and file for bankrupcy. how sad would that be though. yeah i live in ca. its one of the largest states in the nation, is home to several industries [farmiing, dot.coms, defense, hollywood] but we can't budget our damn money so we're bankrupt. damn...somehow i dont think i'm far from the truth.

fart...brain fart....
so does anyone else agree with me that anjolina jolie is like the hottest woman alive. she's freakin sexy. i know a lotta girls, including myself, who would be with this woman...and yes i mean be with her in the biblical sense, and by biblical i mean sexual, and by sexual i mean sex. she's freakin hot. so yeah i'll be watchin tombraider2

does kevin costner have to make epics all the time? like his new film "open range" i swear its unforgiven...with cows. lots of cows. who thinks its gonna flop?? me, i do...i do? when was his last good movie...dances with wolves? that was what in the 90s..gimme a break and i dont mean nell carter

and the new denzel movie comin out...can't remember tht title of it. i swear its an ethics question. say a man's wife was dying from an incurable disease. but he didnt have enough money to pay for the experiemental medicine for it. so he goes to the hospital and attempts to steal the medicine. s hould he go to jail? there's more to it though like he's the chief of police in small town and he gives his gf this money that was confiscated by drug dealers, and his gf leaves him all this money in her will after her house is set on fire andhe's the only witness.....ok so its half like the ethics question....shit now i'm confused...

jooooobbbbbb. i need to find one. and one that pays. soon. i have too many bills piling up. not cool. and borders isn't scheduling me enough hours. wack. might pick up another part time at this clothing shop. buffalo exchange, they sell used and new clothes. might stop by on my lunch break and fill out an app.

ok this is all the randomness i can provide you all with for tonight.

peas&carrots

happy 4th of july...go set some fireworks off...eat some bbq...drink a lil of the spirits...and thank those old white men in wigs for the founding of this country, bc w/out those slaveowning freethinkers i would not have the freedoms and constitutional rights to speak my mind.

 
1. Name: elaine

2. Nickname: lainey, elainey, lainesters

3. Birthplace: sun valley, ca

4. School: of life

5. Bacon bits or croutons: sunflower seeds

6. Favourite salad dressing: ranch or blue cheese

7 What type of deodorant do you use: dove fresh

8. Favourite shampoo or conditioner: thermasilk

9. Favourite colour: blue,orange,black,brown

10. Best friends: i've got the best friend circle, the close friend circle, and the friends circle....but i try to make everyone feel special when i'm with them

11. One pillow or two: 7

12. Pets: i had a goldfish named sparky & then he died and i got sparkyii & then he died and i've had no pets since

13. Favourite Movies: this is an extremely evil question: say anything, the court jester, pretty in pink, sixteen candles, the usual suspects, swingers, willi wonka and the chocolate factory, cinderella, love and bball, brown sugar, fight club, the princess bride, lilo and stitch, zooander, amelie, his girl friday, sunset blvd and many many more

14. Favourite type of music: another evil question: hip hop, pop, punk, emo, rock, soul, neo soul, reggae, dancehall, big band swing, country, 80s new wave, 80s r&b, 80s music period, and anything that strikes my fancy

15. Hobbies: sleeping, reading, writing, driving, smoking, smoking, talking shit, roaming aimlessly, drinking, and whatever comes to mind

16. Dream Car: in high school? jeep wrangler sahara that was green with a camel interior....now?? hmm its still the ford f150 with extended cab and long bed. white or black. girls love trucks.

17. Type of car you drive: 99 toyota black...that's my baby

18. Word or phrases you overuse: oh shit, shit, fuck, damn, bitch, fo'sho, forreals, lol, haha, hehe, jk, shh don't talk to me i'm drinking, its noon time for the pub, [the last two were in lush years at uci...]

19. Toothpaste: Crest

20. Favourite food: pizza pizza

21. Most romantic thing someone ever did for you: buildabear trip with me...also stayed by my side through all my spurts of dorkiness

22. Do you get along with your parents: now that i'm older yes. i've been a daddy's girl for forever and my mom used to yell and scream at me all the time...now i wish she'd yell and scream at me

23. Favourite town to chill in: la, then sf, and the valley and irvine are at a tie

24. Favourite ice cream flavour: chocolated malted crunch....hmmm thrifty's

25. Favourite soda pop: mountain dew code red has me bouncin off wals

26. Favourite beer: hmmm newcastles make me salivate, but when i'm po' its mgd fo'sho

27. What's your bedtime: when my head hits the pillow

28. Favourite shoes: my blue chucks and my black chucks

29. Favourite song at the moment: that's a hard one...i like monica's so gone, the new hot hot heat song is catchy, big city lover from dj krush, graham central station-the jam, the white stripes track where meg sings...i better stop before i think of more

30. Favourite website: all my friends online journals...that and friendster...evil friendster

31. Favourite subject in school: ethnographic cinema

32. Least favourite subject: probability and statistics

33. Favourite sport to watch: bball, hockey, futbol, tennis, volleyball

34. Most humiliating moment: i think there's way too many, it's what happens when you're a complete dork

35. Craziest person or silliest person you know: most likely me....nic and bee...hans too, he likes to show everyone his ass all the time

36. Favourite Holiday: anytime i'm with my entire family

37. What kind of work do you do?: for the meantime i'm a barista at borders359...in the future?? grad school and a gig at college hopefully

38. Are you an inside or outdoors person?: when im in the valley??? its hot as fuck out here, so most definitely indoors. otherwise i like being outside...gives me a nice shade of brown

39. Do you have children?: nope

40 How many girls?: nope

41. Say one nice thing about the person that sent you this: well she didn't send me this, but april is one rad chick who's hella funny on her livejournal. i'm happy i got to know her my last year at uci

42. Pierce your nose or tongue? yes and yes...but their both out. my nose was just buggin me and my tongue ring? the 2nd time i got it pierced it was cool for a while until the enamel of my teeth started to get on the bottom ball. yeah it sounds disgusting, bc it was disgusting...

43. Be serious or be funny? i've been told i'm quite the funny

44. Boxers or briefs on guys? boxer briefs

45. Whole or skim milk? nonfat please

46. Single or taken? taken

47. Simple or complicated? simply complicated

48. Law or anarchy? lawless democracy

49. Flowers or angels? flowery angels...eww fire and ice roses

50. Gray or grey: grey

51. Read or write? write

52. Colour or black-and-white photos? black and white

53. Sunrise or sunset? i always seem to miss sunset, but i'm up for the sunrise

54. Rap or rock? hmmm i like rap and i like rock, but rappy rock or rocky rap??

55. Stay up late or wake up late? stay up late and get up early

56. More romantic: Bath or shower? a bubbly bath

57. Is it POP or SODA?: sodie pop

58. Leather purse or knit purse? i had my grannie phase so i'll say knit...i'm too poor for leather

59. Eat an apple or an orange? naranja please

60. What came first: the chicken, maybe the egg, but then there had to be a chicken to lay the egg...why do i have a hankering for fried chicken and some overeasy eggs?


61. Wet Seal or Contempo? ewwwwwwwwww

62. Light or dark nail polish? i was a fan of black nail polish and now i'm on the french manicure...damn kat and the manicure/threading crew!

63. Tall or short girls? i'm a shortie, but i love my tall sistas

64. Emerald or ruby? sapphires

65. Pants or long skirt? skirts over pants or pants turned into skirts

66. Left or right?: right

67. 10 Acquaintances or 1 best friend? best friend please

68. Vanilla or chocolate ice cream? neopolitan

69. Leonardo DiCaprio or Tom Cruise? neither...john cusack, ducky from pretty in pink, max fischer in rushmore

70. Green beans or carrots? carrots and ranch dressing

71. Low fat or fat free? low fat

72. Ponytail or leave it down? hair not long enough for ponytails

73. silver jewellery or gold jewellery? none...but a cross from my parents

74. Kids or no kids? i like rugrats as long as their not mine

75. Cat or dog? allergic to cats, so its gotta be the pups

76. Half empty or half full? half and half

77. Mustard or ketchup? where are the hot dogs?

78. Hardcover or soft-cover books? both

79. Newspaper or magazine? magazine

80. Sandals or sneakers? sneakers.

81. Red car or white car? a red car with white wall tires

82. Hug or kiss? a huggy kiss

83. Corduroy or plaid? probably corduroy, plaid when i'm in the mood

84. Happy or sad? happy

85. Live or die? Live Love Eat!

gots this from aprils livejournal...i'm bored. it's summer. i've got the time for these things...