well here we go again...

so the next two weeks....me dropping contemplations on the past five years of my life. yup that's what we're in for folks. bc in two weeks i'm outta of here. most likely for good.

today is reggaefest, my last one that i get to enjoy as a student, and then apsa banquet. this is the 2nd year in a row that i've gone to reggaefest and then to apsa banquet. with the same date even! [hah thanks suckaa!]

wow...it really is time to go.

i'm gonna be moving more stuff tomorrow...all the boxes that i've packed up are ready to make their way back to the valley. i want my room to look at least a lil bit empty, so it feels like i won't be moving too much stuff when i go back. gonna help my parents put all the stuff that's in my room aka the new storage closet, into our actual storage space.

gonna most likely study my butt off this weekend. i will graduate man! no way am i gonna stay for a summer session. my checkbook won't let me.

its 5/30. move out day for me is 6/17.

18 days.... = \

 
and let the mayhem begin...

and so it starts. i know i packed away 3 tubs of clothes last week. but that didnt' put a dent into my packing. this is 5 years worth of crap i'm going through. well... i know i left some stuff back home...but if you guys know me i've got a whole lot of shit. my room is beginning to look like a stack of boxes and its only week 9. i know i've got to do this now bc i've really got no time to do so otherwise. i dont want to pack away my picture frames just yet. once you start taking down the decor. then it just feels like a downer and who wants that. so the books, cds, dvds are gonna be put in boxes until move out. boo

i'm not too sad and overly dramatic this time bc i feel like i really got to live out this year. last year it felt like i didn't get to do everything i wanted. and well this year..this year i did. i made friends other than the kaba kids, played nice with a FOBrr or two, connected with these 5stars, kicked it in the back with some fil poetry assholes, got a longawaited pineapple upside down cake, baked some cakes and cookies, added to my in the hundreds cd collection, founded a new vinyl collection, found love for the bay and la and even my home the valley, purchase criterion only dvds, fell in love with amoeba, took a trip to the cdm for one last time, found a place in my heart for these new faces and even some old.

but the fun isn't over...i've got a bbq to do, a banquet to plan, and some more rubbermaid tubs to buy...

going back to the mayhem....

 
AHHHHHHHHHHH

i hate it when things are hectic. i hate feeling like i'm in a rush. i like order. i like peace.

i'm sitting in the av rec room until 11pm. from 7-8 was sheer madness. people all talking at once. no one on the same page. it felt like sheer chaos. and now i have a headache and a stomach ache. grrr must be the stress and all the bad food i just ate: del tacos, pizza, chicken and a "latte"

ewww i hope i feel better soon....

 
coming to a close ...

so i cleaned out three drawers which filled up two rubbermaid plastic tubs. think i'm gonna go and buy more bins. sorry ivy, i think you were right about the whole "well if they're in plastic bins you won't have to unpack them..." thats sounding mighty appealing bc i still a collosal size [not the roller coaster, just enormous] mountain of clothes. its resting on top of three plastic containers that i could probably use for packing huh? oh wait ivy: yeah get me those boxes. i forgot all about my other crap: books, cds, bags and beanies, crap in general that has no title. yeah i got a lot of crap.

i've come to the conclusion...yeah i'm gonna live at home. i just gotta tidy up my storage closet of a room. get rid of some stuff. maybe deco-page [sp?] a bookcase or dresser or two. who knows. but i wanna make the space feel as comfortable as possible since for once i won't be moving out it at the end of the summer.

the job hunt: i'm gonna mail those csun apps asap. so if i got a csun gig, and i lived at home. it wouldnt be too bad bc i'd probably be making enough to pay off loans, pay off credit cards, gas, and my frequent trips to irvine and la that i'll be making to visit my friends. gotta mail those suckers out asap!

study: so i'm determined to study the rest of the two weeks here...oh kay yeah right. well pass. i'm determined to pass the rest of the two weeks i'm here.

when i was working at borders yesterday [which might be for the last time in a long time] i realized that this will probably be the last time i go to south coast plaza, which kinda freaked me out. i know that i dont go to the mall often, but there's always been a comfort in knowing that the south coast was a 15min drive for me. like ronald says it has EVERYTHING [think beverly center, rodeo drive, and northridge mall combined]. oh well, this feeling will probably disappear when i realize how i hate malls and the only reasons i ever went to south coast bc i was working that day.

all i wanna do this week is pack. hmmm i think i'm gonna hafta make a target trip.

i really wanna gameboy advance sp. damn mike and his gameboy and that golden sun game. i'm not one for rpg games...final fantasy always seemed boring. i like fighting games myself. merciless, violent, non-thinking games. oh well i got sucked in and now i want golden sun and a gameboy advance sp...i'm not gettin the other gameboy advance. no backlight?? pshaw how can i play in the dark then ???

ok i think i've turned into a total nerd

oh well

that's it for now from my end

peace out










4weeks =)

 
whats going on...

so i didnt have to pick up a schedule of classes this week. wow. its finally over. the feelings that i had last year are all gone. my whole experience of missing everyone immensely isn't happening right now. i think its bc since i took an extra year to slowly unwind and let go as opposed to the abruptness of leaving on my 4th year...damn those on track people! hah jk. but yeah i just feel like its finally my time to leave.

and leave i shall. i dont have any jobs lined up, i've just been extremely lazy. i send out resumes only to get no word back. i talked to eric about this. it isn't that i want the jobs i send resumes out [well yeah ok it is] but at least contact me for an interview you know? make me feel that i'm worthy enough for that. instead i think i'm going to be transferring back to my summer store borders359 : sherman oaks and go back to being a barista. some money is better than no money. and i will gladly take the 8.19 an hour. i just realized i got a raise. which means i've been with borders for a long ass time.

although the idea of living on my own is appealing...really really appealing, my meager 8.19 an hour job gives me so many reasons not to live on my own. i definitely need to save money on rent. i know i can handle moving back home. i did it once already i think i can do it again. and its good to know that at least for the summer there are apartments and houses that i can crash on [yay dartmoth and 31 cap boys] i'd just like to get a nice bankroll going. its really depressing when there's a 0 or a negative amount in the checking/savings acct.

i've spent five years here, that's half a decade. i never wanted to be here permanently, but i can say that i never really wanted to go back home...but what can i do? i've got to do what i gotta do. and thats help the family out.

so i'm gonna enjoy the rest of my time here....believe me i have... and not try to stress out too much while i'm here.

c'est la vie.

 
poopers =(

my aim's gone wacko on me and isn't lettin me log on as uccloud9. so i'm using uccloudybuddy instead. im me there ppls ok...

 
good times

my hell of midterms and tests is over and i celebrated with the pub crew...hell yeah and a lil free jurassic5 show. thank god jeff minhaus, our asuci president, is a hip hop fan. the only good he's done with his term as president is give the students a free j5 show. otherwise...yeah what a waste of a year.

j5 was good times indeed. the opening act was bleh, but j5 made me shake my ass, bob my head, wave my hands in the air and had me lovin hip hop.

their encore seemed longer than their set.

aaron mcgrudder [sp?] the creator of boondocks was at our campus last tues. he mentioned that hip hop is dead and underground hip hop simply tries to be 1993...and that you can't go anywhere with out hearing bonita applebomb ala tribe called quest.

i knew he was right but i didnt think his theory would be proven so soon. fore at the j5 show, although they're mainstream now, they still feel underground, their encore had a freestyle session and yes a tribe beat was played and they yelled out how they were taking it back to 1994.

it was still good times and now i'm chillin in dartmoth relaxing my peets...attempting to think of a place to go eat.

work tomorrow from 12-830 and then its the valley for me.

good...i miss my mommy and daddy!

sunday is mother's day, hug, kiss, and tell your moms that you love them. things you should be doing everytime you see them.

gotta pay for api grad and pgrad....

at least i gots my tax return check coming!! woohoo!!












sunday...treeweeks...i <3 u

 
triple threat thursday plus one...

thurs:
930-1050 muslim identity in north america midterm
11-1150 chapter test - spanish 2c
330-450 asian am public health midterm

and then

friday:
3-350 stats test

poopsters...

 
pcner no more

so yesterday was my last pcn. it was fun and good times simply because i made it. although i did a good amount of complaining and comparing. for example the "pep" talk from sunny sounded like a scolding instead. mentioning to the cast that pcn costs 30grand? wtf? you do pcn bc its fun not bc it cost 30grand...that just made the dancers seem so down =( sucks for them. at least i can look back and think of a time when pcn was fun and ppl didn't take things too seriously. it just felt so SERIOUS. what happened to the FUN??? whatevers. senior suite had tons of FUN. chari, alex, and me bought the seniors some presents and i think we all enjoyed our time on stage. most of the seniors had the same mentality. we did it FOR US and OUR COORDS. after pcn was over i talked to some alum and they all said that we looked good and like we were having fun. believe me friends we were.

the next time i go to a pcn i'll finally be sitting in the audience with my friends and reminiscing about the good times. i don't regret doing it all, but i wish it had gone a lil more happier.

post pcn night was elephant bar with some of the mesa ra's=caren, thao, and sara. and with old skool kaba/puso ppls. it was good times kicking it with alex, chari, rich, april, mish, regi[where the ho's at?], berto [puso pal], daniel, danielle, rozanno[lolo], shelby, and the late comer jevon. debby was there too and her guy, alex, bought a round of raspberry kamikaze shots for me rozanno debby and alex as well. a shot for old times sake. my elephant bar suggestion=try the mud pie. really really good...ohhhh so good.

i ended up crashing and not partying. i'm old man i wanted to sleep and sleep i did.

today was spent chillin, watching the sound of music on dvd, quick best buy and fry's trip [yay i came out unscathed. no purchases!], and now i'm just waiting to go on rounds. yes yes the life of an ha/ra...i'm on duty.

time to focus on school, graduating, the house, and other things. i wanna enjoy what i've got.






that's all friends...










happy two weeks